It became clear to me then,
How much I mean to Him.
It became clear to me then,
How much I need Him.
When the world swirls around you like a roaring riptide,
When nothing’s going right brewing a hurricane inside,
Take a breath.
Take a moment.
Realize.
The devil’s trying to pull you from your calling from On High.
So grow close to the Lord;
He’ll grab your hand out of the waves.
Call out for His name;
He’ll calm that storm and give you grace.
Resist the Devil and he will flee from you,
Because he knows your next breath
Is Jesus I need you
I was having one of those days that started with good intentions, but nothing was going according to plan. Every step of the morning it seemed something was pulling me off track, no matter how determined I was to make today a good day and inline with my New Years resolution to start my days with Jesus. I was getting derailed during my bible time with texts and to-dos. The kids were very trying this morning (hangry, fighting, constant interruptions). My coffee went cold. Zach would get a phone call right when I needed his help. Classes needed to be urgently registered for. Credit card statements checked. Friday brunch to be made. The task list kept piling up from all sides. My 10 min workout was delayed by hours. The gym turned us away when I tried to drop the kids off for some down time to focus on my writing. Finally when the kids were out of the house with Zach and I had a moment to breathe and make myself a snack, I glanced at our Christmas tree to find the lights were switched to rapid-fire color change mode.
I LAUGHED. I laughed so hard. Normally, this would have been the straw that broke me. The final input to max out my sensory overload. The thing that would have opened the flood gates of frustration and rage. But in that moment, I realized how silly it was. I realized how hard the Devil was trying to distract me and detract from the one thing I’ve been trying to do all morning long: Spend time with God. Find peace in his presence. Write.
And if the Devil is working this hard to keep me from God, that tells me how much of a threat my calling is to him. How much God wants to give me, and the impact His work will have in me and on the world. I will not be deterred. With God as my north star, though the winds may blow and the storms may rage, on I will go.
I have MUCH to learn biblically, but I know that God will prepare those He has called. God told me to write. For me, and for women everywhere. So here goes “nothing.” I’m leaping out in faith here. Let’s write.